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4:50pm

Frustrated
Sad
Lonely
Scared?
Clueless
Overwhelmed
Drifting
Living
Not living.
Stale
Too settled.
Comfortable
Uncomfortable
Not where I belong.
Where do I belong?
Left behind.
Staying put.
Don't want to stay put.
Restless
Scared
Undecided
Purging
Turning back to the soil to help me find my way.
Will I ever find my way?
Floating
Unsure
Insecure
Old before my time.
Straddling my youth & my fading youth.
Back to doing what's easy instead of what's best.
Saying goodbye.
Saying hello.
On-shore breeze is making it chilly.
Air is warm, ocean is cold.
The fog is rolling in again.

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Mrs. Fry said…
pretty flowers. I like them!

autobiographical poem?

it's nice!

I feel the same way. Swimming in opposite directions like the Pisces I am.
Tuesday, April 6, 2010 at 5:41:00 PM EDT
Bloomin'Chick Jo said…
Thanks Brenda! It's not a poem, but a free-write. Very autobiographical! When the mood strikes me, I note the time and free-write on how I'm feeling or what's going on around me at that moment.

Thanks Holli!
Tuesday, April 6, 2010 at 6:59:00 PM EDT
Mara said…
Simple, yet powerful piece on the contradictions of life that are the human experience.

You know from my last post (and probably most of my posts, actually) that I am struggling with my own life contradictions right now. There's something about the warming of the air and blossoming flowers that really makes me think about where I am in life, what I want and where I want to be.
Wednesday, April 7, 2010 at 8:19:00 AM EDT
Bloomin'Chick Jo said…
Thanks M.J. The changing of seasons could have something to do with this. (A birthday coming up soon has A Lot to do with it!)
Wednesday, April 7, 2010 at 9:41:00 AM EDT
Lizzi said…
So powerful. I really like it.
Friday, April 16, 2010 at 12:55:00 PM EDT
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