This Perfectly Imperfect Life

Hubby, sis-in- law Bev and I spent about an hour or so outside this evening in the back yard around the chiminea! The temps have dropped 20 degrees from 50 to 30! Not a cloud in the sky but lots and lots stars! (Easier to see around these parts since there is less light pollution here and no lights at all out back!) A nice cozy New Yrs Eve at home is my prefered way to ring in the year and I am proud of it!

I picked up this shower curtain super cheap on clearance LAST JANUARY! I just found it (in the bedroom) this afternoon! Sigh. (The hooks were left by a tenant who moved earlier this year - free is even better than super cheap on clearance!)

Not to insult anyone who reads the NY Times as I obviously do, but how many of its readers asked for the "weekender" subscription for a Christmas present?! And how many of its readers have ever gotten this excited to find the papers on their porch?! Yup, nerd!

you can view my 'christmas 2007' pics in my slideshow to the right or click on the following: http://picasaweb.google.com/GardeningJo/ChristmasTime2007 !

I am sincerely and deeply saddened by the cowardly assassination of Benazir Bhutto of Pakistan.

Our tree!

i'm taking the following book off my "what i'm reading" list: "Garden of Faith" by Lynn Hinton (1 of the most depressing books i've read to date! hope it has a happy ending at least! UPDATE: finished 11/30 - not exactly a happy ending, a realistic ending w/hope & things going in a positive direction - very heavy topics like suicide, cancer, death, fear, trust, faith - not @ all what i thought it was going to be based on description!) check my "what i'm reading" section to see the books i've added! we picked up our christmas tree at home depot yesterday! why is it exactly that these trees seem to be a perfectly reasonable size at the store but seems to be just HUGE in our living room! it's such a fat & wide tree! i know they tend to "relax" once inside, but sheesh! it does smell so fesh & wonderful! today i'll put the lights on it and hopefully find the ornaments! (which are definately not in the basem...

today would've been my daughter's 8th birthday. funny thing is that i only recently realized how big she'd be after seeing a picture of our grand niece when she was 8 but it was only a couple of days ago that it hit me that she wouldn't be a baby anymore! not even a little girl actually! a big girl! that was quite a shock to the system and now i'm wondering if i should pick out different toys for the toys for tots donations i make in her honor! going to church to light a candle didn't feel right to me today. so, i lit candles all over the house this afternoon, including 2 Mary candles. that felt right to me. i wrote to her in our journal. that felt right to me. i watched a charlie brown christmas and nestor the long eared christmas donkey this afternoon, feeling that she would've liked to watch them. it's very hard to describe how i've felt today. a day that i'm never sure how to get through or how i'm going to get through.

just a little while ago this morning that i'm going to start taking my anti-depressant again. so i did. half a pill now and half a pill later. (if i take the whole pill at once, i get all loopy, my blood pressure drops and i just want to curl up & take a nap!) i'm feeling sad, overwhelmed and scared. maybe it will help. maybe just the act of taking it will help. i don't know. and i've been thinking... i read some where that you shouldn't use "just" in certain instances in conversation and i'm wondering if that translates to writing as well. for instance, in leaving a message: "oh hi! it's just me..." because you're actually saying that you're not important or taking credit away from you & what you've got to say. it's lead me to think about the title of my blog here, "just diggin' around." does the use of "just" make it seem as though i'm floundering, going along with passi...