This Perfectly Imperfect Life

This beautiful girly is one of our 8 grand nieces (plus 2 grand nephews!)!!! She's the second to turn 1 this yr (since august) and 3 of them have been born since this June!

Hell, yesterday I admitted that I watch a SOAP OPERA, so why not admit this?! I'm watching the movie Clueless! (1995) My friend Michelle and I went to see this movie because our boyfriend's at the time would probably rather have been castrated than go to see it with us! And while I don't remember being overly enthused with the idea of going, but I actually loved it! Why I felt the desire to share this with blogger land, I don't know!

that i did get some things accomplished today, but nothing fulfilling! went to the foodstore to pick up sudafed, iced tea, mushrooms, a steak and toilet paper. (you'd think i was single!!!) did 2 loads of laundry. scooped out the litter boxes. took trash out twice. handed out lease renewals to a few of the tenants. faxed an application for credit check and employment verification for a vacant apartment. faxed our fax replacement ribbon info to our management office again because we're out of ink. (have been for 5 months!) took a shower. marinated the steaks and chopped up mushrooms & onions for dinner. before i knew it, the day is basically over and i'm tired again & ready for bed! sheesh. most of my days are like this. sigh.

yesterday... can you believe that a soap reminded me that i've got the gift of time and how lucky i am to have been given it?! then i happened to be reading julia cameron's "the artist's way" (yep, still reading it!) and the following resonated with me: "for most blocked creatives, reading is an addiction. we gobble the words of others rather than digest our own thoughts and feelings, rather than cook up something of our own," (pg. 87) and "as blocked creatives, we can be very creative at wriggling out of things," (pg. 88) and "we decide how powerful god is for us... and if we receive a gift beyond our imagining, we often send it back," (pg. 91). i seriously heard charlie brown's voice scream out in my mind " that's it !" like he does the christmas special when lucy asks him if he has 'the fear of everything'! then i looked up "eat, pray, love" author elizabeth gilbert and was reading her ...

in the event i end up being the only member of a writer’s group i attended last night without children, i wrote the following to share. maybe! like we discussed during our first meeting, you never know what’s going on in or has gone on in someone else’s life. i’m not a mother in the traditional sense and what i’m getting at may really surprise you! while i’m not always sure about what’s in store for us once we die, i am positive that there is a special, beautiful and loving heaven for those children whose lives end before what we believe is their time. yy daughter brianna would’ve been 8 years old this coming december 7th. i’ve watched other people’s children learn to walk and talk. i’ve watched other people’s children getting ready for their first days of school. i’ve seen books that i know she would’ve loved and clothes i would’ve loved to buy for her. i’ve bought toys for her for christmas and given them to hubby for his american legion’s annual toys for tots drive. i’ve lit candles...

Just before my annual candle party this past saturday, i began pulling the fall stuff out of the basement and changing over the house, inside and out, from summer to fall! My favorite time of year has begun! YIPPIE!

~This past Monday, 9/17/07, I found my cat Buddy dead in the spare room. He was 9 years old and been with me, along with one of his brothers, since he was just weeks old. Buddy and his brother Pinky were my first pets. I've never lost a pet before. ~Some of my cats can be very picky eaters. There are times when they'll eat just enough of their food to survive and practically starve themselves because they no longer like what I'm feeding them! I thought this is what was happening with Buddy around late August/early September. He wasn't eating much, lost weight and didn't seem to have as much energy. When I changed to a different food, he seemed to perk right back up and seemed to begin eating as usual again. He also started running around the house again, playing with the other cats and gaining weight. I thought he was going to be ok. ~My oldest cat, Mr, who is about 17 years old (a stray that found me nearly 7 years ago!), was very ill the week before last with a vi...

This is the first year that it has not been the same beautiful fall like weather as on the day our world and lives were altered in ways our worst nightmares couldn't have brought to us. This September 11th, it is dim, there's a gusty breeze and rain that is a heavy mist one moment and a steady soaking the next. When I was working, I made sure I had off on this day. When I wake, I turn on the tv to watch the coverage of the memorial ceremony at Ground Zero. I do not want to forget. I could've been on the 78th floor of World Trade Center Tower 2 that morning 6 years ago. But I backed out of the job I had accepted there, using the fact that it wasn't what I really wanted to do as an excuse for my cowardous. I happened to call out of my crappy job on Sept 11, 2001. I turned on the tv to see the news reporting a fire in Tower 1. I watched with disbelief as a plane flew into Tower 2 and the tv screen went black. I've become thankful for not being there inste...